worth it.

"You're worth it, you can't earn it.  The cross has proven that you're sacred and blameless.  Your life has purpose..." -Mikeschair

Not gonna lie.  I've read other peoples' blogs and felt completely worthless.  Is that weird?  Maybe.  But for a while -- until this post -- Blogger became a place that I always felt inferior, awkward, and unbeautiful (new word.  I make those up a lot.)  Which is funny.  Because I started this blog to share my mishaps, my opinions on books, movies, people, God and everything He has planned for us -- my life -- with others. With you.  Not look at others' lives and compare them to my own.

My life isn't all about vintage clothing, recipes, and traveling across the sea to England or Africa.  My life is about learning to love God, striving to love people.  About leaving my PSAT check in my basketball shorts in my bedroom floor.  About getting aggravated at how fake so people can be.  About getting a high-five from Lecrae.  About my crush holding the door for me.  About the life Jesus has given me and taking it one step at a time, converse on my feet, lyrics floating through my mind.  That's my life.

I don't care for things other Bloggers like.  Take photography for example.  I don't enjoy to taking pictures of crisp, red apples or the vibrant grass in my backyard or my outfits or of anything really.  Maybe at concerts or one sunset I think is inspirational.  But not of every little detail.  My blog is more words and music, verses that stick out to me, random tags I've selected.  That's just what I like to blog about.

And a lot of people say, "Well, I don't want my blog to be a dumping ground, so I share the happy stuff." That's completely understandable.  But it creates the illusion of perfection for all who read their blog, which brings us back to where I started.  I felt worthless because my life didn't sound like novel chapters, intriguing and beautifully written.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I honestly blog for me as much as I do for ya'll.  And seeing all these posts about 'seemingly perfect lives', I don't want you to feel that way about me.  My life is not perfect.  My life is worth it.  Because of a man named Jesus who treasures my life over His own.  He gave His life so I could experience it.  That's why I blog.  Because I have a purpose and one day, He's gonna make it so worth it.