lost in a sea of faces.

I started school a few days ago meaning two things -- one) I now have my Mac and I'll be blogging more consistently and two) I am no longer on the bottom of the totem pole.  Holla sophomores! :)

So (obviously) school is the last place I want to be, but I'm glad to see my friends and peirs.  We haven't done much of anything except go over syllabuses and play name games, which was less than thrilling to say the least.  The poor freshmen are still pretty confused about everything -- especially locker combinations -- and the seniors all have bad cases of what we call 'senioritis'.  But, eh, that's high school for you.

I've been asking God to give me His eyes lately.  To look past the attitudes and egos and heavy eyeliner and Hollister shirts and see the actual person.  So far, I've failed epically, but I'm still trying, and I think that's what counts.

I didn't mention this to ya'll, but I don't have a single class with my best friend.  At first I wanted to scream up to God the question we all ask nearly every day in our hearts: WHY?!  Why would You do this?  I just made a true friend and now I'll hardly get to see her!  Why do You have to make being a teenager + a Christian harder than it already is?!  I just don't get it!  But as I reflected on my situation, my perspective slowly began to change.

See, I've always sort of been in someone's shadow.  I'm not a leader, not a follower, so I was never really 'seen'.  Sure people know me, who I am and what I stand for, but they don't see me.  I've always played the background, not the main role.  As much as I want to stand out, well, I never have.  And while I was pondering this, it hit me.

It's my time to shine.  God wants me to step out of the shadows.

So.  Here I am.  I'm no longer identified by who I hang out with or the role I play in this scene of my life.  I'm Anna and I'm His.

"I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world.  Lost in a sea of faces.  Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine.  Because You traded Your life for mine."  --Kutless

my own little world.

i live in my own little world.

i rarely step out of it.

'cause that means stepping out of my comfort zone.

and that means risk.

taking risks? me? HA!

but there are people hurting.

people crying.

people dying.

people who are scared and alone.

people without love.

people without Christ.

so why am i still in my own little world.

all hunky-dory.

happy go-lucky.

loving life.

when people need me.

when people need JESUS.

i'm living in my own little world.

with Him.

when people are without Him.

my own little world is not where i need to be.