I started school a few days ago meaning two things -- one) I now have my Mac and I'll be blogging more consistently and two) I am no longer on the bottom of the totem pole. Holla sophomores! :)
So (obviously) school is the last place I want to be, but I'm glad to see my friends and peirs. We haven't done much of anything except go over syllabuses and play name games, which was less than thrilling to say the least. The poor freshmen are still pretty confused about everything -- especially locker combinations -- and the seniors all have bad cases of what we call 'senioritis'. But, eh, that's high school for you.
I've been asking God to give me His eyes lately. To look past the attitudes and egos and heavy eyeliner and Hollister shirts and see the actual person. So far, I've failed epically, but I'm still trying, and I think that's what counts.
I didn't mention this to ya'll, but I don't have a single class with my best friend. At first I wanted to scream up to God the question we all ask nearly every day in our hearts: WHY?! Why would You do this? I just made a true friend and now I'll hardly get to see her! Why do You have to make being a teenager + a Christian harder than it already is?! I just don't get it! But as I reflected on my situation, my perspective slowly began to change.
See, I've always sort of been in someone's shadow. I'm not a leader, not a follower, so I was never really 'seen'. Sure people know me, who I am and what I stand for, but they don't see me. I've always played the background, not the main role. As much as I want to stand out, well, I never have. And while I was pondering this, it hit me.
It's my time to shine. God wants me to step out of the shadows.
So. Here I am. I'm no longer identified by who I hang out with or the role I play in this scene of my life. I'm Anna and I'm His.
"I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world. Lost in a sea of faces. Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine. Because You traded Your life for mine." --Kutless
August 11, 2011
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School hasn't started for me yet, though it seems like it's just around the corner! :) I hope you shine this year Anna!
Wonderful post, Anna! I'm a lot like that too. Lost in a sea of faces (By the way...that is totally my favorite Kutless song!) and..I, too, am going to try to shine my light brighter to the world around me!
Thanks for writing this<3
Love you!
I miss you soo much its crazy! Call me sometime! PLEASE?!?!?!
ya hit it right on, girl. ;) love you!!!
btw, did my letter get to you? just checking....I'm pretty paranoid about lost mail. :D
School starts here on Monday. Fun stuff!
well at least you'll be online more. I still don't have e-mail, so that's lame. Wish you had tumblr... we could talk on there. But whatever. :(
Anywho... you should call me. Haha. Soon enough I guess.
I miss you!
You should write me a letter... but don't mention Micah or anybody like that in it... just a normal one. And I'll respond ASAP.
Love you.
xx,
Bleah
oh yes. school is quite a joy >.< we started a week ago. blahhk.
october - that's when i have the long distance privilege. then we shall talk till our hearts' content! (though i'm not sure that's possible...)
and okay. i will write you one tonight. no, wednesday. gotta volleyball game.
love and miss you!
anna :)
thats sooo not fair.
i dunno... but i know that once Alyson called me from her gmail account. :/ i'm not sure how though.
I miss you sooo much!
And okay! I can't wait. I'll expect one by either Saturday or Monday.
Have fun at your game! :D
xx,
Bleah
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