Hm. Not sure how to say this. It's kind of weird even typing it. But I'll no longer be posting here on Sisters in the Savior. I'm not deleting it -- I could never do that. It'll still be here if you wanna visit. Ya know, for old times sake or... something.
This blog is so dear to me. I can't begin to describe how much it means to me. It's allowed me to be myself when I didn't know who I was. God knew I needed an outlet, and this... this was it. God brought me close friends -- true friends -- that I'd asked Him to send me for so many years. I'm so grateful for everything He's given me through this blog. Everything He's taught me. It will always be a piece of me, but me... isn't me anymore.
I have been revived. I'm not trying to sound spiritual or holier-than-thou. But God has awakened me from my sleep. He's shown me my need for grace and that doing this by myself just isn't going to cut it. He convicted me and told me I know nothing of holy... but I want to. I want to crave His word like I crave pepperoni pizza from Little Caesar's. I want pray like I breathe -- incessantly. I want to hang out with Jesus like He's sitting right next to me.. 'cause He is.
So. Starting on this new journey, I'm starting a new blog. It's called "fanatical," inspired by the Lecrae song.
"I'm a F-A-N-A-T-I-C, fanatic! I'll rep Christ till I D-I-E, fanatic! I'm not extreme, I'm redeemed with faith to serve a God that's extremely great! I'm a fanatic!"
Because life's too short to be anything but a fanatic. A fanatic for Christ.
Any fanatics out there?
Love,
Anna
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November 18, 2011
November 11, 2011
tenth avenue north + andy mineo + lecrae.
"Jesus was a nice guy, but wasn't no friend to me. My lips said I loved Him, my actions despised His reign. I had my own agenda, I was my own king..." -Andy Mineo, "Formerly Known"
So. Another reason my blog's name/address is changing. I'm taking a step in my walk, and I wanted my blog to take a step with me.
It's kind of hard to tell ya'll this, but I think you've all been there in some point in time. When you talked the talk, but didn't walk the walk. Where everything you said was Jesus, but nothing you did was. Where your schedule was empty and there was still no room on the calendar for spending time with God. That's where I was. And it's not 'was' as in a year ago. Five months ago. Try four days ago.
I don't know what clicked, but when I listened to Tenth Avenue North's CD, Over and Underneath, something did. The lyrics were just so worship-filled. Every song was telling me how great God is, just in different words. "Love Is Here" told me God isn't later. He is right now -- in this moment. Which lead to the thought, "Why am I waiting? Why do I keep pushing Him to the side?" Which eventually led to this post.
The answers to my questions weren't exactly reassuring.
Why am I waiting?
Apathy, complacency, laziness...
Why do I keep pushing Him to the side?
Because I think I have better things to do.
What can be better than God? I don't know about you guys, but when I've experienced His presence, it's like a high that lasts for a week or two. Events like church camp. Winter retreat. Concerts. But that "high" wears off. And I'm right back to where I started. I make time for anything and everything, rather than My Everything being my schedule. It's pathetic, really. But I think a lot of us get caught in these ruts, where Jesus was a a nice guy, but wasn't no friend to me. Where we determine our own fate and end up even more miserable than we were before.
"I had a dream that I was captain of my soul, I was master of fate. I lost control and then I sank. So I don't wanna take the lead, 'cause I'm prone to make mistakes..." -Lecrae, "Background"
I was blending in, not standing out. I had become part of the crowd all over again, worrying what people thought of me, just wanting to be accepted. I'd become complacent and apathetic, just like everyone else. Complaining about homework, rolling my eyes at people's faults instead confessing my own. That's not how it's supposed to be. We were made to be light in a dark world.
"I was made to light it up, city on a hill top. And I know the Only Way so hit me when you feel lost. So put your shades on, you know lower your frames. 'Cause when His glory shines, you gon' lower your frame..." -Lecrae in "Let There Be Light" by Andy Mineo
So. Another reason my blog's name/address is changing. I'm taking a step in my walk, and I wanted my blog to take a step with me.
It's kind of hard to tell ya'll this, but I think you've all been there in some point in time. When you talked the talk, but didn't walk the walk. Where everything you said was Jesus, but nothing you did was. Where your schedule was empty and there was still no room on the calendar for spending time with God. That's where I was. And it's not 'was' as in a year ago. Five months ago. Try four days ago.
I don't know what clicked, but when I listened to Tenth Avenue North's CD, Over and Underneath, something did. The lyrics were just so worship-filled. Every song was telling me how great God is, just in different words. "Love Is Here" told me God isn't later. He is right now -- in this moment. Which lead to the thought, "Why am I waiting? Why do I keep pushing Him to the side?" Which eventually led to this post.
The answers to my questions weren't exactly reassuring.
Why am I waiting?
Apathy, complacency, laziness...
Why do I keep pushing Him to the side?
Because I think I have better things to do.
What can be better than God? I don't know about you guys, but when I've experienced His presence, it's like a high that lasts for a week or two. Events like church camp. Winter retreat. Concerts. But that "high" wears off. And I'm right back to where I started. I make time for anything and everything, rather than My Everything being my schedule. It's pathetic, really. But I think a lot of us get caught in these ruts, where Jesus was a a nice guy, but wasn't no friend to me. Where we determine our own fate and end up even more miserable than we were before.
"I had a dream that I was captain of my soul, I was master of fate. I lost control and then I sank. So I don't wanna take the lead, 'cause I'm prone to make mistakes..." -Lecrae, "Background"
I was blending in, not standing out. I had become part of the crowd all over again, worrying what people thought of me, just wanting to be accepted. I'd become complacent and apathetic, just like everyone else. Complaining about homework, rolling my eyes at people's faults instead confessing my own. That's not how it's supposed to be. We were made to be light in a dark world.
"I was made to light it up, city on a hill top. And I know the Only Way so hit me when you feel lost. So put your shades on, you know lower your frames. 'Cause when His glory shines, you gon' lower your frame..." -Lecrae in "Let There Be Light" by Andy Mineo
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