This is going to sound harsh, but...I sort of dropped down on the social ladder. On purpose. Instead of being the group next to popular (like I have been all my life), I am now in the 'odd' group of the freshmen class. And last year, in eighth grade, I was perfectly content with it. Happier than ever. It's drama free and very welcoming. They won't judge you for not dating, wearing Christian T-shirts, and being modest. They won't leave you out of slumber parties or get-togethers. Which I love. I love Shannon for her Christ-likeness, Katelin for her acceptance, Ashley for her wittiness, and Hayley for her sweetness.
But as I walk down the high school halls and people give me looks. Looks that say, "What a loser." and "Freaaakkk." And that's hard. I used to get grins from pretty much everyone I came in contact with. And sometimes, I feel like my old friends think they're doing me a favor by waving to me in the halls. Like, "I'll be nice and wave to the loser."
I thought standing out would be easy. Being different isn't bad, right? Wrong. It's easy to stand out, not so easy to be proud of it. Not easy at all.
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Awww! I'm so sorry, Anna!!! I've never had that sort of thing happen to me, but I know what it feels like to not fit in or to be excluded from something. I'll be praying for you! You're right when you said that it's hard to be proud of it, but think of it as being persecuted for Christ. You might not like those evil-eyed glances that people give you or the gossip that may spread around the school about you, but remember that the truly popular people are those who are willing to stand out and be different and who are kind to people no matter what.
Prayin' for you, Anna!
~Chelsea<3
oh Anna! I'm homeschooled, so I can't really relate. But I can imagine what you are going through. Standing out for Christ is the right thing to do. It may involve persecution - like what you are going through - but it is the right thing to do. We are to be lights in a dark world. Matthew :13-16. And remember, Anna, you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength! Philippians 4:12. I will be praying for you, sister! love ya, girl! Buttercup
P.s. don't hesitate to get a hold of me if you need something! (like an online hug!) I'm sure a lot of other girls that we know here on blogger will say the same. We love you!
*hugs Anna*
I'm homeschooled too, so I can't really even imagine how it must feel to get evil stares from people in the halls. But I do know what it's like to feel different, to feel like no one knows what you're going through. But, like Buttercup said, we're lights in a shining world. Jesus never said being a follower of His would be easy, but He did say He would be there to help us through it.
Keep praying to God, Anna, and he will help you through this.
Love,
Lily
ps--I'm praying for you too!
Anna,
What a testimony you are. I admire you. I know it's hard, but being counted worthy to suffer for Christ is a great honor. Standing up for Christ is an action that will have eternal significance, and your reward in heaven will never fade away.
Anna, you are an encouragement to all the girls who read your blog. Right now, I just want to encourage you will God's promises from Scripture.
Philippians 1:29
For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake.
Matthew 5:11-12
Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
Matthew 10:32
So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Romans 8:18
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
Your sister in Christ,
Chloe
Btw, Anna, that first song on your blogpod is really awesome. I didn't know that Owl City sang Christian songs until now (although I did know that the lead singer was a Christian). So....do u think that I could maybe possibly put that song on my blogpod? If not, that's ok too!
Anna, you're amazing. When I read your posts, I'm so inspired to get out there and not care what anyone thinks at all.
Sorry to read that you are going through some tough times. Being different is good. It means you aren't afraid to be an individual and sing to your own rythm! :) I'll pray for you!
All I have to say is im proud of you!! It is not easy to be different... if it was everyone would be doing it! Know that Im praying for you!
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