[striving]

why can't i be me?

why do i watch others moves?

why do i want so badly

to walk a day in others shoes?

it's like i want a taste

of the glory or their fame.

but to God it's not for Him

it's simply all in vain.

i don't want to change my life

yet at the same time, yes i do.

i want to know what others feel

and do what others do.

i'm not talking about everyone --

just the few elite.

that are adored by everyone,

everyone they meet...

i'm not talking about celebs,

or people on t.v.

no, i'm talking about normal teens

the same as you and me.

so is it wrong to want attention?

is wrong to want to shine?

is it wrong to wish for once

that all of that was mine?

but then i feel so selfish,

to want to be accepted.

Jesus came, made no mistakes.

and still He was rejected.

this life is full of people,

striving for perfection.

that was me at one point.

...now i'm striving for heaven.